Dear Heart,
Words cant really explain how great my day was.Geeze oh man,God really loved me today. OkaY so I didnt talk to Kristen at all but she tried to talk to me and I was just like whatever real smart so she knows I didnt care,but Andy was being sweet to me so I talked to him and...he really didnt talk about Alicia,thank the lord. So me and Alicia made fun of Kirsten flirting with Steve(gag me with a sharp object).But anywhoo Dave..He's my buddayy and he gave me a pencil, cuz mine ran outta led so all day these ppl were like cool pencil where did u get it from and i said my budday dave. And Phil was being really sweet to me,he says im his buddy.Then this black kid that's in my english class, he like notices me...like checks me out..odd so he says im his friend lol like he was like hey ur real cool ur my friend. So he waves to me in the hall now. And Me and my bestest friend Brytni(bob) we like drolled over Yencha all day cuz he's so hot so we nicknamed him"hotttt" And jared and joey at my lunch table were laughing at me cuz im so funny,i love them..they are so cute. Then fundamentals of theatre.we had to do these improvisation skits( you drew randomly from a hat) ad they were soo funny and nick,drama king is soo good at acting and he made us laugh so hard we like fell outta our chairs. oh yeahh I forgot like an important part. So like steve and garrett(my cuz) have to share lockers garrett told me to wait at his locker for him(my locker is next to theirs yay) But anywayz I was waiting n steve came up behind me and he started talking to me and im like why ru talkng to me u were being mean to me yesterday..(like hello im sick of this!)And he goes, No I wasnt but he's going to be nice to me today, and he was aww so sweet and he got more than 1 point today yay. And joe...whats up with him he was passing back papers and im like gimmeback my damn paper so to be funny he put mine on the bottom and i tripped him haha. So dude I was walkin outside wit my friend Jamie and daron was infront of us so i caught up and talked to him, soo hot. And she's like ur friends with him? gd he's so hot..ur friends with everyone! French class-teacher not there=me and my buds actin crazy..too much to list. So I got outta class eary like completely missed it,dam and that guy hates me. Bein wit the team today was great..soo much good i cant list it all. But like it was only Leigh n I and the guys looked so hott and everything and soo nice to us. And they won by 1 point, and they are #1 in their section. and me and ryan's lil joke worked...he got a point..cuz of me. So this hot kid from the other team was talkin to me..i dunno why but he was(he plays soccer,me and leigh are boys soccer fanatics...hint-JOe and MR.HODGES) so he goes and is like askin me who #30 is and I tell him its ryan,then he says how he hates him.. and he doesnt know him just cuz he asked ryan if we were good and ryan said yeah, i guess ur not supposd to say if ur team is good..but how dare he make fun of my ryan? But joe is on and he' idle and i left out a lot of parts of my great day..hope tomorrow and friday are good too.
I wanna talk to joe, i want him to be nice,i want the closeness"If a great wave shall fall, and fall upon us all, then i hope there's someone who can bring m back to you"-The Calling
DeaR HeaRT:
HoRoSCoPeS GaLoRe:
Life's isn't fair. Don't you remember that advice from some long lost lesson you received as a kid? Over the next few days, you may need to remind yourself of this. Over the next few years, however, you may realize that in many ways, life is more fair than most people realize. It seems that the balance of power will tip in someone else's favor, at least for the next few days. If you fight it, you may end up expending an awful lot of energy for very little gain. If you take it in stride, you will be the recipient of all the good stuff again, when the scale tips the other way. Let love lead you where it may. You will be surprised when you find that the surroundings are much more conducive to romance that you thought they would be. Accept it all as a gift from the gods. There are no rules about relationships this week, Capricorn. So it doesn't pay to plan, organize or do anything different to bring love into your life. It doesn't have to take a special effort to find joy. It just takes letting go of your own resistance to it.
Dear Heart,
My 2 friends came up with this theory that January is..."MAN PMS MONTH" or somethin like that... jesus pete. What's up all their butts? I havent carried on a convo with Joe in 4 days, its a record...but I miss him. I dont want our closeness to drift away. Steve..whooa man Pms is back. We have like execessively yelled at eachother,at an extent I feel sort of bad...but he deserves it...and he's been doing bad at basketball lol he had 1 point today.. and it was a foul shot out of 2. Phil, he expects me to do everything for him but does nothing at all for me. He wants me to let him copy off my tests,homework,and check out books for him on my library card...come on! I'm so sick and tired of doing everything for people and getting nothing in return except ignored or rude to.Screw them. God kristen..if you want steve and andy...go screw them...thats like what you do with every other guy you dirty hoe...I so fricking tired of her flirting with all th guys in our homeroom,does she think its cute?Of course she'd be like oohno i'm not flirting with them. Yet they call her dirty.. hmm but see steve is being nice to her like WTF.!!! and andy and alicia wooah just go screw eachother cuz im sick of it. stop asking about eachother to me, i dont care..they think i do.. but i dont..hello i have a life too if nobody knew. Im so sick of these self absorbed people only thinking i care about their lives..HELLO WAKEUP AND SMELL THE DAM* COFEE! I WANT TO BE NOTICED>>>I WANNA FEEL SPECIAL. I feel like I shoud move on away from the past, like joe an steve and find someone who likes me, well brian and rob do.. i cant feel the same about them yet... i need joe. There's something about joe, when i see him, he changes my mind. I like him so much. lol its like joe..."i wish you were here"
Dear Heart,
So many great days in a row, its unreal....Today the boys had a bball game and Spang(coach) got kicked out and had 2 technicals. Then burrell had one and so did little bennie all in 4 min. It was funny but I had to mark all that sh* and then steve was being so cute and nice(he's been nice for the past week) and he had a 3 and stuff but "Joe" god, can you say "FAG"...... god almighty. Whats up his ass?Sorry had to let that out, I dont wanna talk to him if he's gonna be acting how he is. But like all my other guy friends are soo nice,I wanna punch fag boy.Soo.. my grades are good... and life is P E A C H Y, besides "fag boy" ahhh someone like kick him in the ass and send him to the moon!!!!!
OOh I love myself.
DeaR HeaRT:
i WaS CHeCKiNG ouT THe SiTe MeTeR... aND THiS BLoG HaS BeeN ReaD 7 TiMeS... i aSKeD DaMSeL aND SiN iF THeY DiD BuT BoTH HaD a NeGaTiVe RePLy... WHo HaS BeeN eaVeSDRoPPiNG oN ouR THouGHTS? WHaT iS iT aBouT ouR MiSeRieS aND iNSaNiTieS THaT iNTRiGueS You So? iT WouLD Be QuiTe eMBaRaSSiNG iF THe oBJeCTS of ouR aFFeCTioNS WHeRe To DiSCoVeR THiS aND ReaD iT... WeLL, i HaVeN'T WRiTTeN SiNCe THe BeGiNNiNG oF TiMe, So i HaVe LiTTLe To WoRRy aBouT... BuT aS FoR DaMSeL WiTH "STeVe" aND "Joe"... eSPeCiaLLy SiN WiTH "HiM" aND HeR oWN "Joe"... HaHa... i LauGH iN SoRRoW FoR THeM.. WHaTeVeR THaT MeaNS... WeLL, JuST THouGHT i'D SHaRe THaT oBSeRVaTioN WiTH aLL oF You... eVeN THe uNKNoWN ReaDeR(S)... QuiTe a SCaRY THouGHT, eH, GiRLS? WeLL, DoN'T TaKe eVeRyTHiNG We WRiTe So SeRiouSLy... BeCauSe SoMe oF iT iS FLuFF aND uSeD FoR DRaMaTiC PuRPoSeS... aND We aReN'T aS oBSeSSeD aS We MaY SouND... BeLieVe Me... HaHaHa... WHy aM i aPoLoGiZiNG FoR WHaT We FeeL aND THiNK aND HoW We WRiTe... THeSe WoRDS oRiGiNaTe FRoM THe MoST PeRCePTiVe aND CReaTiVe MiNDS aMoNG MaNy aT ouR RiPe aGe... So SoaK iN aLL You CaN...
DeaR HeaRT:
RiDiCuLouS oBSeSSioNS oF KRiSTeN KReuK... aKa LaNa LaNG...
SHe iS oNe oF ouR BeST FRieNDS... SHe JuST DoeSN'T KNoW iT YeT... iF SHe eVeR GeTS To MeeT Me N TeeNa, i KNoW SHe WiLL JuST FaLL iNTo ouR FRieNDSHiP... iNSTaNTLy... aND WiTHouT THe NeeD FoR THouGHT oR ReaSoN... SHe WiLL Be oNe oF uS... (eViL LauGH)
Dear Heart,
It's been awhile since I have poured out my endless badluck to you. The holidays.. some people think they are just great,to me.. they are a killer. FAMILY BLAAAAAAa. Actualy I got everything I wanted and more and I love my family but as they say"too much drama" Yeah I got to see "steve" I like him so much and"joe" I talked to him alot as I always do.I just feel empty.... like part of me is missing. I cant find it. I know in my heart it's so true, half of me is missing.. but can i find it thru you?"-I kinda made that up lol
