DeaR HeaRT:
iF Ya'LL DiDN'T KNoW... We HaVe a PoeTRy SeCTioN NoW...
THeRe'S NoT MuCH aT THiS MoMeNT... BuT i aSSuRe You... THe GReaTeST MiNDS aRe CooKiNG...
DeaR HeaRT:
aT a KiCK BaCK RiGHT NoW... i'M JuST SNeaKiNG iNTo THe RooM To WRiTe... THeRe CaN Be SoMe eXTReMeLy SCaRy DRuNK PeoPLe... QuiTe... BuT THeN THeRe iS oNe WaLLFLoWeR THaT i'Ve MaDe eYe CoNTaCT WiTH SeVeRaL TiMeS... He'S ouT oF PLaCe... i CaN FeeL iT... aND HiM BeiNG THe oNLy NoN-aSiaN WouLD DeFiNiTeLy PRoVe My PoiNT... BuT He SMiLeS... aT Me... aND He KNoWS i'M aS MuCH ouT oF PLaCe aS He iS... i'M SoBeR... i'M NoT HiGH oR BuZZeD... i'M JuST WaNDeRiNG aRouND... SeaRCHiNG FoR NoBoDieS LiKe Me... aND THeRe He iS... WiTH THoSe DeeP SeT eYeS aND THaT SeRiouS LooK... WiTH THoSe eYeBRoWS THaT aLWayS LooK CoNFuSeD... i'Ve SeeN You BeFoRe... BuT i NeVeR eXPeCTeD To MeeT You HeRe... We BoTH CaN SeNSe HoW MuCH We DoN'T BeLoNG... BuT SiNCe He MaKeS No aDVaNCe ToWaRDS THe oTHeR NoBoDy... i'M FoRCeD To Go iNTo HiDiNG... iN a BeDRooM... WiTH a CoMPuTeR aLReaDy TuRNeD oN aND CoNNeCTeD By CaBLe oR DSL... ReaDy FoR Me... i WiLL Go BaCK NoW... HoPe My RiDe WiLL Be DoNe CuDDLiNG oN THe CouCH aND TaKe Me HoMe... oR FoR "RoBBie" To GaiN THe CouRaGe To TaLK To oTHeRS LiKe HiM... Me...
DeaR HeaRT:
ToNiGHT'S My NiGHT... uNLiKe MaNy oTHeR NiGHTS... i CaN eNJoY MySeLF... i'LL Be DoiNG My THiNG... aND i'M SuRe He'S DoiNG HiS... aND FRaNKLy My DeaR WaTSoN, THaT'S a ReLieF... i NeeD To LiVe My LiFe... CaN'T WaiT aRouND FoR HiM FoReVeR... BuT You KNoW iF He DoeS CoMe BaCK... i'LL WeLCoMe HiM WiTH oPeN aRMS... i CaN'T SToP My LiFe FoR HiM aNyMoRe... i'M So SiCK oF PuTTiNG eVeRyTHiNG oN HoLD FoR HiM... He NeVeR aSKeD Me To, So WHy THe HeCK aM i DoiNG iT? WHaT? i'M No MaRTyR oF LoVe... i DoN'T NeeD To MaKe aLL THeSe SaCRaFiCeS... i JuST DoN'T... i'M ouT oF TeaRS... i'M ouT oF eXCuSeS... i'M ouT oF SMiLeS... i'M ouT oF LoVe... i'M JuST So eMPTy aND DRaiNeD THaT i NeeD a SuRGe oF eMPoWeRMeNT... FRoM aNyTHiNG... MaYBe FRoM MySeLF... DeeP DoWN iNSiDe... i KNoW THeRe'S SoMeTHiNG THeRe... MaYBe SoMeTHiNG a LiTTLe SPeCiaL... aND i NeeD To FiND iT... So oTHeRS CaN TaKe NoTiCe oF My iNSiGNiFiCaNT LiFe aND FoR oNCe... WaNT iT... WaNT Me...
DeaR HeaRT:
WHy aM i So HuNGRy FoR LoVe? i THiNK BeCauSe He DoeSN'T LoVe Me THaT i'M WoRTHLeSS... I THiNK BeCauSe He DoeSN'T WaNT Me aNyMoRe THaT He'S RiGHT... THaT HiS JuDGeMeNT aND oPiNioN oF Me aRe CoRReCT... iF He THRoWS Me ouT THeN i'M GaRBaGe... i THiNK He BeLoNGS To Me... BuT oNLY CuZ i WaNT To BeLoNG To HiM... i SHouLDN'T... "BeLoNG" iS a BaD WoRD... eSPeCiaLLy WHeN You PuT iT WiTH SoMeBoDy You LoVe... LoVe SHouLDN'T Be LiKe THaT... You CaN'T oWN a HuMaN BeiNG... You CaN'T LoSe WHaT You DoN'T oWN... WHaT iF i DiD oWN HiM... CouLD i ReaLLy LoVe SoMeBoDy WHo WaS aBSoLuTeLy No oNe WiTHouT Me? WouLD i ReaLLY WaNT SoMeoNe LiKe THaT? SoMeBoDy WHo FaLLS aPaRT WHeN i WaLK ouT THe DooR... i DoN'T... aND NeiTHeR DoeS He... i'M TuRNiNG My WHoLe LiFe To HiM... aND iF iT MeaNS So LiTTLe To Me THaT i CaN JuST GiVe iT aWaY... HaND iT To HiM... THeN WHy SHouLD iT MeaN aNy MoRe To HiM? He CaN'T VaLue Me MoRE THaN i VaLue MySeLF...
PeoPLe LooK aT Me aND THiNK, "PReTTy GiRL. PooR LiTTLe PReTTy GiRL... WHo WaNTeD To KiLL FoR LoVe... Die FoR LoVe..."
WHiLe i THiNK, " LooK aT Me... No WoNDeR He DiDN'T LoVe Me... i LooK LiKe HeR... THaT STuPiD, FaT GiRL iN THe MiRRoR... i'D HaTe Me Too iF i WaS HiM... i HaVe NoTHiNG LeFT To LiVe FoR iF He DoeSN'T LoVe Me... i aM WiLLiNG To SaCRaFiCe My LiFe FoR THe SaKe oF LoVe... My LoVe... THaT He WiLL uNDeRSTaND WHaT He LoST..."
BuT i JuST NeeD To uNDeRSTaND iT'S NoT aBouT DyiNG FoR LoVe... BuT LiViNG FoR iT... To MaKe HiM ReaLiZe iNSTeaD To WHaT He HaD, aND WHaT He CouLD STiLL HaVe... MayBe eVeN a BeTTeR Me... WHo CHaNGeD FoR MySeLF... aND LiVeD FoR MySeLF...NoT HiM... THaT i DoN'T NeeD HiM... WHy WouLD You WaNT To Be WiTH SoMeoNe WHo DiDN'T WaNT To Be WiTH You? iT'S JuST CoMMoN SeNSe... iF You'Re NoT eNouGH THeN... You NeVeR WiLL Be eNouGH... LiKe He WLL NeVeR Be eNouGH...
(SoNG oF SoLoMoN)...
Dear Heart,
In a world filled with happiness,hope,love,pain,grieving, ect... I feel as if I am lost.These people around are so..lost within themselves.I've found myself lost trying to be like them and lost trying to be unlike them.Somehow I found a way to be found by looking into his eyes.He changes me when I'm around him, its as if I am back in their world. Without him I feel lost again.I try to think about what is it to be with him when i'm not but somehow it's not the same. I need to find my way back to their world, I want to be found forever.
DeaR HeaRT:
THiS iS DeDiCaTeD To aLL THoSe WHo KNoWS WHaT uNReQuiTeD LoVe HuRTS LiKe...
on my own, pretending he's beside me
all alone i walk with him till morning
without him, i feel his arms around me
and when i lose my way i close my eyes and he has found me
in the rain the pavement shines like silver
all the lights are misty in the river
in the darkness the trees are full of starlight
and all i see is him and me forever and forever
and i know its only in my mind
that im talking to myself and not to him
and although i know that he is blind
still i say theres a way for us
i love him but when the night is over
he is gone, the river's just a river
without him the world around me changes
the trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of strangers
without me his world will go on turning
the world is full of happiness that i have never known
i love him, i love him... but only on my own...
DeaR HeaRT:
Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head
And as I climb into an empty bed
Oh well. Enough said.
I know it's over - still I cling
I don't know where else I can go
Oh ...
Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head
See, the sea wants to take me
The knife wants to slit me
Do you think you can help me ?
Sad veiled bride, please be happy
Handsome groom, give her room
Loud, loutish lover, treat her kindly
(Though she needs you
More than she loves you)
And I know it's over - still I cling
I don't know where else I can go
Over and over and over and over
Over and over, la ...
I know it's over
And it never really began
But in my heart it was so real
And you even spoke to me, and said :
"If you're so funny
Then why are you on your own tonight ?
And if you're so clever
Then why are you on your own tonight ?
If you're so very entertaining
Then why are you on your own tonight ?
If you're so very good-looking
Why do you sleep alone tonight ?
I know ...
'Cause tonight is just like any other night
That's why you're on your own tonight
With your triumphs and your charms
While they're in each other's arms..."
It's so easy to laugh
It's so easy to hate
It takes strength to be gentle and kind
Over, over, over, over
It's so easy to laugh
It's so easy to hate
It takes guts to be gentle and kind
Over, over
Love is Natural and Real
But not for you, my love
Not tonight, my love
Love is Natural and Real
But not for such as you and I, my love
Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head
Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head
Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head
Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my ...
DeaR HeaRT:
oH My GooDNeSS! i HaD So MuCH FuN ToDaY!! HeeHee... aND GaRReTT iS So FuDGiNg HoTT!!! i SWeaR! THaT HaiR... THaT SMiLe... THaT LooK... oH My GooDNeSS! i CouLD JuST Die... BuT iN a GooD WaY... i CaN'T SToP SMiLiNG...
i SWeaR THiS iS WHaT i FeeL LiKe... HeeHee oR SaYiNG "YeaH!" i HaVeN'T eVeR ReaLLy aDMiTTeD a GuY'S HoTTNeSS 'TiLL NoW... GueSS i'Ve BeeN So STuCK oN "Joe"... BuT THeRe aRe MoRe GuYS ouT THeRe... oNe'S WHo CaN NeVeR Be HiM... aND oNe'S He WiLL NeVeR Be... i DoN'T LiKe GaRReTT oR aNyTHiNG... He'S JuST YuMMy eYe-CaNDy... He aLWaYS FLiRTeD WiTH Me BeFoRe... aND He aLWaYS SMiLeD aT Me... NoW He CoNVeRSaTeD WiTH Me... He eVeN uTTeReD My NaMe... (TooK a BReaTH) JuST a SMaLL BuRST oF JoY DoN'T HuRT aT aLL... HeeHee... o HaPPy DaY... PLeaSe ViSiT Me MoRe oFTeN...
DeaR HeaRT:
aCTuaLLy THiS iS FoR aNyoNe WHo ReaDS THiS BLoG... i'M MaKiNG THiS a JoiNT BLoG... MeaNiNG MoRe PeoPLe CaN WRiTe iN THiS BeSiDeS uS THRee... You NeeD To e-MaiL uS!! GiVe uS a SaMPLe oF YouR WRiTiNG... aBouT aNyTHiNG aND We'LL ReSPoND iF You QuaLiFy... uNDeRSTaND THiS iS QuiTe eXCLuSiVe So aCCePTaNCe iS LiMiTeD aND VeRy RaRe... BaSiCaLLy iF YoU GeT iN, FeeL SPeCiaL... iF You WaNNa KNoW RuLeS, NeeD MoRe iNFo, oR iF You HaVe aNy QueSTioNS:
FeeL FRee To e-MaiL uS THaNKS... We'Re LooKiNG FoRWaRD To HeaRiNG FRoM Ya'LL...
Dear Heart,
So sad, I look so bad. One of the greatest inventions, the black eyeliner is lost. Where could it be? I hope it's safe. I could always use my mom's but I just feel like I need my friend back. It's a tragedy how it's lost but its not the first. Please heart help me find my friend!
DeaR HeaRT:
i'M oFF To PaRTy! HeHe... (GaSP) CHeCK iT ouT! i'M WeaRiNG BLue... aND NoT My TRaDiTioNaL PiNK... aNyWaiSH... THaNK GoD i'M NoT aN uNTHiNKaBLe... YeSSS! i aM NoRMaL... NoT ReaLLy... BuT THaT'S aLRiGHT... i HaTe eVeRyoNe aNyWaY... WHy WouLD i WaNT To Be LiKe THeM? i'M PeRFeCTLy CoNTeNT BeiNG Me... i DoN'T LiKe MySeLF VeRY MuCH MoST oF THe TiMe... BuT i HaVe PRoGReSSeD... i uSeD To HaTe MySeLF MoRe THaN aNyoNe eLSe... THeN iT eVoLVeD To eXTReMe DiSLiKe... aND NoW THaNK GoD iT HaS ReDuCeD To NoT LiKiNG MySeLF VeRy MuCH... So See... i'M iMPRoViNG... aReN'T You PRouD oF Me? MaYBe oNe FaTeFuL DaY i WiLL LeaRN To LiKe MySeLF... aND MiRaCuLouSLy THRouGH THaT... MaYBe eND uP eVeN (GaSP) LoViNG MySeLF... THaT WouLD Be THe DaY...
i NeeD To FeeL PReTTy ToDaY... C'MoN GuYS... HeLP Me ouT... WaTCH ouT CuZ PiNK iS oN LeaVe... SHe'S ouT oF THe aSYLuM FoR oNe NiGHT... aND SHe WiLL HaVe THe TiMe oF HeR LiFe... eNJoY HeR WHiLe You CaN... GooDNeSS i SouND LiKe a PRoSTiTuTe! HaHa.... WeLL i'M GoNNa HaVe FuN ToNiGHT aND No oNe iS STaNDiNG iN My Way...
Dear Heart,
Well here I am. Not like it's anything great but ya know, what are ya gonna do.Life is so difficult. Now I know why people kill themselves this world is so unlivable. I cant stand to live with these people whom I cant stand! Today my good friend made me go bolistic on her. She tries to act like she's all that when her only friends are around. I hate people like that. I dont know what to do about my whole love situation.Im confused this kid"Kevin" is said to like me and I cant stand him he's not my type. What shall I do? My head is starting to spin........
DeaR HeaRT:
oK... i HaVe SoMe GooD NeWS... We HaVe a NeW CHaRaCTeR CoMMiTTeD iN THiS aSYLuM... SHe WiLL aPPeaR WHeN SHe FiNDS iT aPPRoPRiaTe... aNyWaY... oNe WoRD... CRiSiS! i THiNK i'M BeCoMiNG THe uNTHiNKaBLe... i SHuDDeR aT THe THouGHT... LooK... i'Ve CoNTRaCTeD THe DeaDLy DiSeaSe... aCTuaLLy a SyNDRoMe... eVeR HeaRD oF PMS? TRy PHS... CHeCK ouT THe *NeW* LuNaTiCTioNaRY aT THe eND oF THiS PaGe... YeS... i HaVe aQuiReD iT aND NoW iT'S iMPoSSiBLe To CuRe MySeLF oF SuCH FaTaLiTy... So BaSiCaLLy i'M aFRaiD oF BeCoMiNG aN uNTHiNKaBLe... aKK! i DoN'T eVeN WaNT To Be PaRT THaT... i TRiED To SeeK GuiDaNCe FRoM NoN-FRieNDS BuT SoMe CaN Be Sooo iMMaTuRe... eSPeCiaLLy THe HiM'S... THeY aRe oF No HeLP WHaTSoeVeR... i'M TiReD aND i'M STReSSeD... LeaVe Me aLoNe... i STiLL CaN'T Be LiKe eVeRyoNe eLSe...
DeaR HeaRT:
a SoNG... By FaiTH eVaNS :: aLoNe iN THiS WoRLD
It’s over now, I can’t compete
I don’t know how I’m still standing on my feet
So turned around and incomplete
I’m not that happy woman that I used to be
Oh, please tell me what did you mean
When you said that you were mine, you knew that was a lie
But in your heart you know that truth
And I’m trying to forget
All the things you put me through (Oh baby)
I never thought you’d turn your back
And walk away from love like that
While I was holding on to you
All you did was let me go
I never thought I would regret
The way I felt when we first met
And now I’m standing here
Alone in this world, alone
It’s over now, we can’t go on
In my eyes I thought that you could do no wrong
It’s no surprise we both belong
Because of you my heart’s singing us that song
I can’t believe our love is over now
Where did love go
And why did I believe that we would be together forever
Now it’s all a memory
I never thought you’d turn you back
And walk away from love like that
While I was holding on to you
All you did was let me go
I never thought I would regret
The way I felt when we first met
And now I’m standing here
Alone in this world, alone
DeaR HeaRT:
HaHa... i HaVe FiNaLLy ReTuRNeD... aND iTS NoT a PReTTy PiCTuRe... So MuCH HaS HaPPeNeD... "Joe" CaN KiSS My aSS... BuT He'S Too BuSy WiTH HeR aSS... DiSGuSTiNG... HeR uGLy, SKiNNy aSS... WHo DoeS SHe THiNK SHe iS? THaT NoN-FRieND HaS BeCoMe THe TaRGeT oF My WRaTH... SHe KNeW eVeRyTHiNG i FeLT... BuT SHe HaD To Go aND FaLL FoR HiM aNyWay... oN PuRPoSe, i BeT... To HuRT Me... My SToRieS HaVe CauGHT HeR iNTeReST... aND NoW SHe WaNTS To FeeL WHaT i HaVe BeeN So oBSeSSeD aBouT... HiS LoVe... BuT iN HeR CaSe, iT'S MiNuS aLL THe PaiN... HeaRTaCHe... TeaRS... FRuSTRaTioN...
i THiNK SKiNNy GiRLS aRe GiVeN a STeP aBoVe uS NoN-aNoReXiC GiRLS... oR "HeaLTHY" GiRLS... THe WoRD GiVeS Me CHiLLS... GuYS SHouLD WaLK aRouND WiTH CoNDoMS oN THeiR HeaDS... CuZ iF TheY aRe GoNNa aCT LiKe DiCKS THeY MiGHT aS WeLL DReSS LiKe oNe...
Do You KNoW HoW LaTe THeY STaYeD uP LaST NiGHT? FReaKiN 12:30 iN THe aM... WHaT THe HeCK CouLD THeY Be DoiNG THaT LaTe aT NiGHT... aND He ProBaBLy TooK HeR HoMe Too... GooDNiGHT KiSSeS aRe THe WoRST... eSPeCiaLLy iF You'Re NoT THe oNe GeTTiNG iT... i HoPe THeY aRe aLL iN LoVe... So THeY CaN MaKe LoVe... aND MaKE a "Joe" Jr THaTS aS MuCH oF aN iDioT aS He iS aND HiS uGLy MoMMa...
He CaN Do WHaTeVeR He WaNTS... He'S NoT MiNe... TRyiNG To CLaiM SoMeTHiNG THaT WaS NeVeR MiNe... VeRy PooR FoRM... i JuST DoN'T WaNT To CaRe aNYMoRe... aBouT HiM... aBouT THeM... THeY aRe NoT WoRTH My eNeRGy... THeN PLeaSe SToP ToRTuRiNG Me WiTH YouR TaLeS oF HaPPiNeSS... i DoN'T WaNT To KNoW... i ReaLLy DoN'T...
oH My GooDNeSS! i HaD So MuCH FuN ToDaY!! HeeHee... aND GaRReTT iS So FuDGiNg HoTT!!! i SWeaR! THaT HaiR... THaT SMiLe... THaT LooK... oH My GooDNeSS! i CouLD JuST Die... BuT iN a GooD WaY... i CaN'T SToP SMiLiNG... 
i SWeaR THiS iS WHaT i FeeL LiKe... 
HeeHee oR SaYiNG "YeaH!" 
i HaVeN'T eVeR ReaLLy aDMiTTeD a GuY'S HoTTNeSS 'TiLL NoW... GueSS i'Ve BeeN So STuCK oN "Joe"... BuT THeRe aRe MoRe GuYS ouT THeRe... oNe'S WHo CaN NeVeR Be HiM... aND oNe'S He WiLL NeVeR Be... i DoN'T LiKe GaRReTT oR aNyTHiNG... He'S JuST YuMMy eYe-CaNDy... He aLWaYS FLiRTeD WiTH Me BeFoRe... aND He aLWaYS SMiLeD aT Me... NoW He CoNVeRSaTeD WiTH Me... He eVeN uTTeReD My NaMe... (TooK a BReaTH) JuST a SMaLL BuRST oF JoY DoN'T HuRT aT aLL... HeeHee... o HaPPy DaY... PLeaSe ViSiT Me MoRe oFTeN...
