DeaR HeaRT:
aCTuaLLy... THiS iS NoT aBouT Me... FoR SiN... a SoNG
"Again"
how can i be strong i've asked myself
time and time i've said
that i'll never fall in love with you again
a wounded heart you gave,
my soul you took away
good intentions you had many,
i know you did
i come from a place that hurts,
god knows how i've cried
and i never want to return
never fall again
making love to you it felt so good and
oh so right
how can i be strong i've asked myself
time and time i've said
that i'll never fall in you love with you again
so here we are along again,
didn't think i'd come to this
and to know it all began
with just a little kiss
i've come too close to happiness,
to have it swept away
don't think i can take the pain
no never fall again
kinda late in the game
and my hearts is in your hands
don't you stand there and then tell me
you love me
then leave again
'cause i'm falling in love with you again
hold me, hold me
don't ever let me go
say it just one time
say you love me
god knows i do love you again
i aPoLoGiZe FoR My aBSeNCe... i'Ve STePPeD ouT oF My MiND... i DiD NoT CoMe BaCK FoR GooD... i WiLL ReTuRN To THaT DaRK HoLe oF THe FoRGoTeN... Do NoT WoRRy aBouT Me... You WiLL SuRViVe THiS oN YouR oWN... i WiLL CoMe BaCK... BuT DoN't WaiT... CuZ iT MaY Be aWHiLe 'TiLL THeN... i HaVe NoTHiNG MoRe To SaY... eXCePT... LeaVe HiM, SiN... DoN'T LeT HiM HuRT You aGaiN... oPeN YouR eYeS... He DoeSN'T LoVe You... He FiNaLLy WaNTS You BaCK CuZ He HaS No CHaNCe WiTH HeR? You KNoW iF SHe DiDN'T Do aLL THaT "BiTCHy" STuFF... He'D STiLL Be CLiNGiNG To HeR LiKe THoSE STuPiD MoNKeYS THaT He LoVeS So MuCH... So DoN'T Be LiKe Me... Be STRoNG... RuN... aS FaR aWaY FRoM HiM aS PoSSiBLe... WHiLe THe HuRT iS STiLL FReSH oN YouR FeeT... DoN'T LooK BaCK... You DoN'T NeeD HiM... You NeVeR DiD... He WaS THe iNSeCuRe oNe... You CaN LiVe YouR LiFe WiTHouT ReGReT BeCauSe You KNoW You LoVeD HiM aS MuCH aS You CouLD... aND He WaS JuST Too STuPiD To HoLD oN To iT RiGHT... NoW You HaVe THe WoRLD aT YouR FiNGeR TiPS... TaKe aDVaNTaGe oF THaT... THe WoRST WaY To GeT BaCK aT HiM iS To FiND SoMeoNe WoRTHY oF You... aND LoVe THaT GuY WiTH aS MuCH oR eVen MoRe eNeRGy You GaVe To "ToM"... aND i KNoW THaT THeRe iS a GuY LiKe THaT FoR You... You'LL MiSS aLL THe oPPoRTuNTieS THaT's iN FRoNT oF You iF You KeeP LooKiNG BaCK... So SToP... LoTS oF PeoPLe CaRe aBouT You... Me BeiNG oNe... iF You eVeR FeeL aLoNe... We aRe WaiTiNG FoR YouR PHoNe CaLL... i'M HeRe FoR You, GiRL...
DeaR HeaRT:
ATTeNTioN eVeRyBoDy... a MiRaCLe HaS FiNaLLy HaPPeNeD... SoMeoNe BeSiDeS "KeN" HaS CauGHT My eYe... "NiCK"... YeS a ToTaLLy NeW CHaRaCTeR iN THiS DRaMa FiLLeD LiFe... He iRRiTaTeS Me iN SuCH a WaY THaT i WouLDN'T MiND HiM aS THe THoRN iN MY SiDe... FuN WiTH "NiCK"... i SaW HiS BoYiSH SMiLe aND MeLTeD eaCH TiMe iT TouCHeD My eYeS... HeeHee... MoMeNTS WiTH HiM... I FoRGeT THaT DuMMy "KeN"... aLL THaT CaN CoMPReHeND iS TiMe... TiMe SPeNT oN LauGHiNG... TiMe SPeNT oN FaKe FiGHTS WHeRe THe PuRPoSe iS To MaKe uP... TiMe SPeNT oN PReTeNDiNG NoT To KNoW eaCH oTHeR eVeN THouGH We aRe STaNDiNG LiKe SiaMeSe TWiNS... TiMe THaT'S TiMe SpeNT ToGeTHeR... ReSeRVeD FoR ouR MoMeNTS oF JoY... YeS, SiN... i HaVe aNoTHeR HaLF... DoN'T GeT Mw WRoNG... i'M NoT iN LoVe WiTH HiM... i THiNK... BeCauSe iTS NoT iN My CaPaBiLiTy To LoVe aNyoNe BeSiDeS "KeN"... RiGHT? My HeaRT HaS aLReaDy BeeN SToLeN So iT CaN'T Be GiVeN aWaY aGaiN... RiGHT?
THaT'S NoT eVeN THe PuRPoSe oF "NiCK" iN THiS SToRY... He iS My SiDeKiCK... My CoNFiDaNT... THe oNLy oNe WHo GeTS Me THaT DoeS NoT oWN THe SaMe GeNeTaLia aS Me... <-- iS THaT HoW You SPeLL iT? We CoNVeRSaTeD aND iT WaS LiKe He uNDeRSTooD aND ReaD BeTWeeN eVeRY iNViSiBLe LiNe... i'M PReTTy LuCKy THaT i FouND HiM aGaiN... He'S JuST WHaT i NeeDeD To GeT THRouGH My PuRGaToRy...
DeaR HeaRT:
a LoT HaS HaPPeNeD WiTH My WHoLE "KeN" SiTuaTioN... aND No... "KeN" DoeS NoT eQuaL CaRL... oK??? i'M SoRRY BuT i HaD To aDReSS THe e-MaiL oF MiSTaKeN iDeNTiTieS... PeoPLe CaN Be So SeLF iNVoLVeD... GRaCiouS... i ToTaLLy aGRee WiTH SiN'S LaST CoMMeNT... PeoPLe HaVe No RiGHT TeLLiNG uS WHaT To Do... LiKe "MaKe a NeW oNe... i DoN'T LiKe You CRaZy CHiCKS TaLKiNG SHiT aBouT Me aND TaSHa"... i'M THiNKiNG "WHo THe HeCK iS TaSHa? aND MoST iMPoRTaNTLy... WHo THe FuDGe CaReS?" So To ReiTTeRaTe WHaT i HaVe PReViouSLy CLaRiFieD... i aM NoT MeLiSSa WHo iS oBSSeSSeD oVeR You... WHaT KiND oF LoSeR Do You FiND Me To Be? i DoN'T THiNK You CouLD PaY Me To STaLK You... i HaVe TaSTe... THaT'S WHy i WaNT "KeN"... CuZ He iS a MaN... aND NoT SoMe iMMaTuRe BaBy LiKe You... So iF WHaT We WRiTe uPSeTS You, CLiCK THe X oN THe ToP RiGHT oF YouR SCReeN aND FoRGeT We eVeR HaPPeNeD aND THaT You FouND uS aT aLL... We aRe NoT ReaL... WaKe uP... You'Re oNLy DReaMiNG... oPeN YouR eYeS BeFoRe iT CoMeS TRue...
i DoN'T uNDeRSTaND THe DyNaMiCS oF THiS WHoLE STuPiD PeRSoNaLiTy iSH... i aM NoT THe aNGRy oNe BeTWeeN Me aND SiN... SHe iS... SHe iS SuPPoSeD To Be THe BiTTeR, MaN-HaTiNG B*TCH (No oFFeNSe, GiRL)... BuT iNSTeaD i HaVe BeCoMe HeR... We HaVe SWiTCHeD PLaCeS... i MaY eVeN LeT a BaD WoRD SLiP FRoM THeSe HaNDS... LiKe SH*T and F*CK... oK... MayBe NoT... BuT i'M STiLL eViL NoW... i FeeL CRaBBy LiKe i WaNNa THRoW JuNK ouT THe WiNDoW... uGH!
i'Ve JuST aBouT HaD iT WiTH THe WHoLE "LuCy" THiNG... THeY aRe NoW GoiNG To THe HoMeCoMiNG DaNCe ToGeTHeR... YeS ToGeTHeR... LiKe SiN DeFiNeD THaT WoRD So WeLL... "ToGeTHeR".... BuT iN My CaSe iT's "THeM" aND NoT "uS"... oH No, SiN... i'M NoT aS LuCKy aS YoU... i DoN'T HaVe a "We"... i'M JuST Me... PiNK... aLoNe aND By MySeLF... SoMeTiMeS i WiSH i CouLD HaVe SoMeoNe i LoVe aCTuaLLY LoVe Me iN ReTuRN... iS iT THaT HaRD? aM i THaT DiSGuSTFuL? i'M SuCH a NiCE GiRL... eVeRyoNe KNoWS THaT... iS THaT NoT eNouGH... MuST i Be aNoReXiC To WiN HiS Love? To Be BooBLeSS aND SKiNNy aND BeauTiFuL WHeRe My oNLy FLaW iS My ViRGiNiTy... i CaN'T Be PeRFeCT... i'M Me... THaT PiNK GiRL WiTH a WeLL oF iMPeRFeCTioNS... i'Ve MaDe WaY MoRe MiSTaKeS THaN GooD... i'M SoRRy FoR THe WaY i aM... eNouGH WiTH FeeLiNG SoRRy FoR MySeLF...
BaCK To THe HoMeCoMiNG THiNG... i FiRST HeaRD THe NeWS FRoM THe GRaPeViNe... FRoM a NoN-FRieND "JoSie"... i CouLD NoT BeLieVe iT... i DiDN'T eVeN GeT a CHaNCe To aSK HiM... oK... So i HaVe No CLaiM oVeR HiM... He iS aS MuCH HeRS aS He iS MiNe... MayBe SHe HaS a LiTTLe MoRe CLaiM THaN Me... BuT i DiD MeeT HiM FiRST So THaT HaS To CouNT FoR SoMeTHiNG... RiGHT?
THe BLiND iDioT iS iN LoVe WiTH a MoRoN... THe MoRoN... LuCy!!! i aM SeRiouSLy DeRaNGeD... i HaVe PRaCTiCeD aND PeRFeCTeD a BaD HaBiT oF HeRS... SuCKiNG oN My HaiR... iT'S QuiTe aDDiCTiNG... uNFoRTuNaTeLy, WHiLe He PaSSeD By My LoCKeR He TooK No NoTiCe WHeN i SuCKeD My HaiR ViGoRouSLY... So i FoLLoW THeM oN THeiR LuNCH DaTeS...
(NoTe: i aM CHaNGiNG "SPoT'S" NaMe To "Joe")WaTCH eVeRY SiNGLe PaiNFuL MoMeNT THaT i WiSH WaS HaPPeNiNG To Me... SHe iS NoT SPeCiaL... SHe iSN'T... i'M SPeCiaL... DaMMiT! CaN'T You See THaT? SHe WaNTS YouR CaR... NoT You... SHe JuST WaNTS To Be SeeN WiTH You... NoT You... SHe WaNTS YouR HoT BoDy... NoT You... SHe WaNTS YouR MoM'S aPPRoVaL aND DaD's CoMPLiMeNTS... NoT You... SHe WaNTS YouR LaST NaMe To RePLaCe HeR STuPiD oNe... NoT You... SHe WaNTS YouR SuPeRHuMaN GeNes FoR HeR FuTuRe CHiLDReN... NoT You...
BuT GueSS WHo WaNTS You...oNLy You... You GueSSeD iT... Me! THaT'S WHo! You CaN DRiVe a BeaT uP BiKe FoR aLL i CaRe... oR We NeVeR HaVe To Go ouT... JuST SNuGGLe iN THe DaRKNeSS oF a CoRNeR aND SHaRe SeCReTS... i DoN'T WaNT aNyTHiNG FRoM You.. THe FaCT THaT You aRe You iS eNouGH ReaSoN FoR Me... i JuST WaNT To TaLK To You aND HoLD YouR HaND... i WaNT To LooK iNTo YouR eYeS aND HaVe iT NaTuRaL To Say i LoVe You aT TH SaMe TiMe... i WaNT YouR HeaRT aND i WaNT You To HoLD MiNe... i KNoW You WiLL Be CaReLeSS... i KNoW i Will Be HuRT... BuT JuST aS LoNG aS i'M THe oNLy oNe WHo HaS YouR HeaRT... i'LL Be oK... WiTH THoSe THRee SiMPLe WoRDS... eVeRyTHiNG WiLL Be BeTTeR...
iT'S BeeN So LoNG... DiD You MiSS Me? i'Ve MiSSeD You So... i HaVeN'T HaD a DeCeNT iNSaNe PeRSoN To TaLK To iN aWHiLe... STuPiD DaD WHo TooK oFF THe iNTeRNeT CoNNeCTioN... DoeSN'T He See THaT i Need You oR i SuReLY WiLL DRoWN iN My SoRRoWS aND oBSSeSSion... MaYBe i'Ve aLReaDY GoNe To THe BoTToM... i'M JuST HoLDiNG oN FoR DeaR LiFe iN HoPeS THaT "SPoT" WiLL FiNaLLY NoTiCe Me... aND FoRGeT HeR... DiD i MeNTioN HoW i HaTeD THiS eViL NoN-FRieND? HaS My NiGHTMaRe FiNaLLy CoMe TRue? HaS THe LoVe oF My LiFe, WHo'S BeeN BLiND FoR So LoNG, FiNaLLy ReGaiNeD HiS eYeSiGHT? aND THe FiRST GiRL He SeeS iS NoT Me... iT's HeR... THe SoMeBoDY WHo WaS TRyiNG To MeSH WiTH THe NoBoDieS... MaKiNG uS FeeL LiKe Her eQuaL... oNLy To STeaL THe VeRy LiTTLe LoVe We'Ve BeeN LuCKy eNouGH To STuMBLe uPoN iN THiS aBSuRD SCHooL LiFe... THaT B*TCH... eXCuSe THe LaNGuaGe... YeS, i KNoW iT's No FauLT oF HeRS... iT's NoT ReaLLy aNyoNe'S FauLT... BuT SHe's RuiNiNG My DaMN LiFe! aND iT'S MaKiNG Me FeeL iCKy aND VioLeNT... CuT HeR DiSGuSTiNGLy BeauTiFuL HaiR... SCRaTCH uP HeR iRRiTaTiNGLy FLaWLeSS CoMPLeXioN... FaTTen HeR NoT eVeN oBeSe MoDeL BoDy... oR CuT HeR BLaTaNTLy aRTiCuLaTe ToNGue So SHe CaN JuST SHuT uP aND He WiLL NeVeR HaVe To LooK HeR WaY aGaiN...
iT'S FuNNY HoW i'M NoT aS FiXaTeD oN HiM aS BeFoRe... i'M HaViNG a MoMeNTaRY oBSeSSioN WiTH HeR... LeT'S CaLL HeR "LuCy"... SHoRT FoR LuCiFeR... CuZ THaT'S WHaT SHe iS... aN eViL CReaTuRe SeNT FRoM BeLoW... i CaN See PaST HeR FaKe SMiLe... SHe iS DeFiNiTeLy NOT a NiCe PeRSoN... uGH! CaN'T You See THaT? SToP LooKiNG aT HeR aS iF SHe'S SoMe aNGeL... CuZ SHe iS "LuCy" FRoM DoWN uNDeR... aNyWaY... My PoiNT Was... i aM FoCuSiNG My STaLKeR aBiLiTy oN THe Hoe... i FoLLoW HeR... i WaTCH HeR eVeRy SLuTTy MoVe... i LiSTeN iN oN HeR WoRDS oR JuSt TRy To MeMoRiZe HeR MaNNeR oF SPeaKiNG... iT's aNaLySiS... i MuST uNCoVeR WHaT MaKeS HeR So SPeCiaL THaT He , oF aLL THe SPeCiaL BoYS oF THiS WoRLD, WouLD TaKe THe TiMe To NoTiCe HeR... i MeaN, i'Ve BeeN aRouND HiM FoR (WuT) THRee YeaRS NoW... aND He HaS DiSCaRDeD Me LiKe i WaS a FeaTHeR iN THe WiND... CaTCH Me... PLeaSe... oR GiVe Me a FeW DaYS To LeaRN To Be LiKe HeR... aND THeN You WiLL CHaSe aFTeR THiS FeaTHeR... JuST WaiT... So DoN'T Go PLuCKiNG THe FeaTHeRS FRoM THaT DeViL BiRD...
i MiSS You... eVeN THouGH i NeVeR SHoW iT aNyMoRe... i LoVe You... eVeN THouGH i'Ve NeVeR ToLD You BeFoRe... PLeaSe SToP LooKiNG aT Me LiKe THaT BeCauSe You KNoW HoW MuCH iT TouCHeS Me iNSiDe... THiS iS THe FiRST TiMe i See You WaTCHiNG Me... HuNGRiLy... FRoM aCRoSS THe RooM... You WiTH YouR FRieNDS... Me WiTH My NoN-FRieNDS... aND aBoVe aLL THe CoMoTioN aND FuN THaT'S RaDiaTiNG FRoM YouR SiDe oF THe RooM... You aRe eYeiNG Me... iF i WaS THeRe WiTH You... i'D Be LoST... i WouLD KNoW NoTHiNG oF THiS PaST WeeKeND... aND HoW FaDeD SoMeoNe GoT... i WouLD Be CLueLeSS To aLL THe TReNDy THiNGS You WiLL Do... i WiLL Be THe NoBoDy WHo GeTS STuCK iN THe MiDDLe... aS THe WHoLe WoRLD PaSSeS Me By... BuT NoW You aRe iN THe MiDDLe... THouGH You aRe a SoMeBoDy... You DoN'T JoiN iN WiTH THeiR CooL PeoPLe TaLK... iNSTeaD You CoNNeCT WiTH Me FRoM aCRoSS MaNY uNCHaRTeD TeRRiToRy... You aRe LooKiNG aT THe NoBoDieS... My NoN-FRieNDS... aND Me... YeS... iT iS ReaL... YouR eYeS aRe SeT oN Me... My HeaRT iS ReeLiNG... YouR eYeS THaT KNoW Me So WeLL LooK DeePLy... iNTo Me... i aM eXPoSeD... You KNoW eVeRyTHiNG THeRe iS To KNoW aBouT Me... THiNGS i DoN'T eVeN KNoW... YouR LaSeR STaRe iS So iNTeNSe... iT'S aS iF You'Re LooKiNG PaST Me... PaST Me... aND MayBe YouR eYeS aReN'T FoCuSeD oN Me LiKe i SoMeHoW THouGHT THeY WeRe...NoT iN THaT "oH My LoVe" SoRT oF GaZe... BuT THe "THaNK GoD You'Re THeRe aND i'M HeRe" KiND... aND i TuRN My Head JuST a BiT To See You aRe LooKiNG PaST Me... aT HeR...
YouR Her(?)... My NoN-FRieND... YouR eYeS aRe WaTCHiNG HeR MoVe... aND TaLK So iNVoLVeD iN a NoBoDy CoNVeRSaTioN... YeT SHe HaS GRoWN WiNGS... BeCauSe oF You... BeCauSe YouR LooK MaDe HeR a SoMeBoDy... SHe uNKNoWiNGLy eLeVaTeS aBoVe THe NoBoDieS... aND SoMeTHiNG HaS HaPPeNeD To HeR THaT HaS NeVeR HaPPeNeD To aNy NoBoDy... SHe WeRe SeeN By a SoMeBoDy.... aND i HaTe HeR... i HaTe You...
DeaR HeaRT:
"SPoT" LoVeS HeR... i HaTe HeR... WHoeVeR SHe iS... SHe STaNDS PeRFeCTLy PoiSeD iN HiS SuNLiGHT... SWaYiNG iN THe WiND... BaTHiNG iN THe CooL DRoPS oF HiS aFFeCTioN... PLeaSe DoN'T Be PeRFeCT... i'M No GooD... i CaN'T CoMPeTe WiTH SoMeTHiNG LiKe You... You'LL aLWaYS be GReaT iN HiS eYeS... aND i aM JuST THaT iRRiTaTiNG PiMPLe oN YouR iVoRY FaCe... STaNDiNG NeXT To You MaKeS Me FeeL a BiLLioN TiMeS SMaLLeR... iT's LiKe a RoCK BeiNG CoMPaReD To a STaR... WHaT CHaNCe Do i HaVe? i RoCK MySeLF BaCK aND FoRTH PRaYiNG i CaN GeT THRouGH ToNiGHT... THaT i CaN GeT THRouGH THiS LiFe... BeiNG THe SHaDoW oF aN uNKNoWN GiRL... WHo HaS No iDea SHe iS My DReaM-KiLLeR... My HoPe-iNFLaTeR... My LoVe-TaKeR...
WiPe My TeaRS aND TaKe Me To BeD... TeLL Me SWeeT LieS aBouT YouR LoVe FoR Me... MaKe Me BeLieVe i'M WoRTH DyiNG FoR... LiKe You aRe FoR Me... iF oNLy THoSe WoRDS NeeD NoT Be LieS... aND You ReaLLy Do KNoW My PaiN... THaT You WiLL SPeND THe ReST oF YouR DaYS MaKiNG iT uP To Me... THaT WiLL PuT Me To BeD... aND i CaN CLoSe THe CuRTaiNS oF My GRieF aND LeT MySeLF SLeeP... BuT THiS TiMe... You aRe NeXT To Me aND i HaVe No NeeD FoR My FooLiSH DReaMS... BeCauSe My uLTiMaTe DReaM iS SLeePiNG BeSiDe Me...
i WaNT To Do a MiLLioN aND TWo THiNGS WiTH You... THoSe LiTTLe THiNGS THaT CouPLeS TaKe FoR GRaNTeD... LiKE HoLD YouR HaND... oR GiVe You a SMaLL PeCK eaCH TiMe We MeeT... TeLL You THaT You HaVe FooD iN YouR TeeTH... PiCK SMaLL BooGeRS THaT i FiND... FiX YouR HaiR WHeN You THiNK iT'S MeSSy... HoW eRoTiCaLLy TaNTaLiZiNG To Be aBLe To LooK aT You aND NoT HaFTo TuRN aWaY aND KNoW You DoN'T WaNT To aS MuCH aS i Do... To JuST SiT NeXT To You aND Not FeeL So iNViSiBLe... aND You CaN RuN YouR DeLiCaTe MaN FiNGeRS THRouGH My DuLL HaiR... BuT You DoN'T MiND THe KNoTS... BeCauSe THe KNoT iS MiNe... aND You LoVe Me... So You LoVe My KNoT... i'M SQuiRMiNG WiTH DeLiGHT JuST THiNKiNG oF iT... You LoViNG SoMeTHiNG aBouT Me...THe ThouGHT iS JuST DeLiCiouS... i CaN TRy To iMaGiNe HoW You'D LooK aT SoMeoNe You LoVe... WiTH THoSe eYeS THaT i GeT LoST in... You'D LooK aT Me WiTH TeNDeR eYeS FiLLeD WiTH aWe... YeS... i WiLL SLeeP LoVeLy ToNiGHT... THaT THouGHT CaN KeeP Me SaNe... *YaWN* oFF To See SPoT RuN...
SiN... I FeeL Ya, GiRL... LiFe SuCKS LiKe THaT... i GueSS He FouND ouT aBouT ouR SeCReT WoRLD... aND NoW We aRe NoT FRee To Be WHo We aRe aGaiN... THe ReaSoN We eSCaPeD ouR oLD LiFe WaS iT WaS Too GeNeRiC... i GoT TiReD oF BeiNG JuST LiKe eVeRyoNe eLSe... CauSe We BoTH KNoW We aRe NoTHiNG LiKe THeM... aND WHo WouLD WaNT To Be.. YeS We DoN'T BeLoNG aND We WiLL NeVeR FiT iN aNyWHeRe... CHeeRS To THaT! i'M NoT HeR... i'M NoT You... i'M Me... THaNK GooDNeSS FoR THaT... i'M oDD... i'M eVeN... WHoeVeR i aM i WiLL NeVeR Be LiKe aNyoNe You KNow... aND THaT'S WHaT MaKeS Me MoRe SPeCiaL THaN eVeRYoNe... BeCauSe i'M NoT LiKe THeM... NoT eVeN CLoSe... BuT WHoeVeR We aRe... i HoPe ouR "HiM'S" LoVe uS FoR THaT...
P.S.: My "HiM'S" NaMe is "SPoT" HeeHee
i PaSSeD By HiM aND He aCTeD LiKe i WaSN'T eVeN aLiVe... iT FeLT LiKe GeTTiNG STaBBeD iN THe HeaRT RePeaTeDLy By a SaMuRai SWoRD... aND You KNoW WHaT HuRT MoST? i JuST PaSSeD HiM WiTHouT So MuCH aS a LooK aND CoNTiNueD oN WiTH a FaKe SMiLe... iT HuRTS To SMiLe... BuT i TaKe My TeaRS aND HiDe iT iN a DaRK CoRNeR oF My MiND... MuST NoT LeT aNyoNe See, MuST NoT SHoW HuRT... HeLP Me! PLeaSe? iT HuRTS... So Bad... i JuST WaNT THe PaiN To SToP... CaN'T You See THe PaiN? iT'S FLaSHiNG ReD iN My eYeS... CaN You LooK PaST My SMiLe aND See THe TeaRS?? oH, He WHo SToLe My HeaRT... LooK aT THe Me THaT You KNoW iS iNSiDe... CuZ i KNoW You KNoW iT'S THeRe... uNTiL You Do... i WiLL KeeP oN WeaRiNG THiS ToRTuReSoME SMiLe... To PRoVe To You THaT You aRe NoT HuRTiNG Me... eVeN THouGH eVeRy Day You KiLL a LiTTLe PaRT oF Me... iT'S oK... CuZ i'LL KeeP oN SMiLiNG... YeS... SMiLiNG...
ToDaY He LooKeD aT Me... HiS eYeS DuG iNTo My SKiN BeYoND WHaT eVeRyoNe eLSe SeeS... aND My HeaRT iS BeatTiNG So HaRD i'M SuRe He CaN See THe PouNDiNG THRouGH My SHiRT... THe BiLLioNS oF PaiRS oF eYeS FoCuS THeiR aTTeNTioN oN uS... We aRe TaLKiNG... iN FaCT, You aRe THe oNe WHo SPoKe My NaMe!! i TRieD To KeeP My CooL BuT You KNoW Me... aLMoST aS WeLL aS i KNoW You... aND You CaN FeeL Me BReaTHiNG HaRDeR WiTH eVeRy SeCoND THaT PaSSeS WHeN You aRe NeaR Me... iF i WaS a PLaNT, We CouLD Be eXCHaNGiNG GaSeS... iNSTeaD oF THeSe LoNGiNG LooKS aND TRiViaL CoNVeRSaTioNS... YouR WoRDS SoaK iT'S SWeeTNeSS iN My eaRS... WHaT aRe You SayiNG? aLL i NoTiCe aRe THoSe LiPs THaT i'Ve BeeN LoNGiNG FoR aLL My LiFe... PLeaSe SToP ToRTuRiNG Me... SHuT uP! ooPS... i SaiD iT aLouD... aND YouR CoNFuSeD LooK TeLLS Me i BLeW iT... You WaLK aWay THiNKiNG i'M a MeNTaL CaSe... aND LeaVe Me FoR THe WoLVeS... THe PaiRS oF eYeS TRaNSFoRM iNTo RaVeNouS MouTHS THaT FiLL WiTH LauGHTeR... i BLeW iT...
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